This is such a sad day to start a blog. I'm sitting here with tears streaming down my face in sorrow for a precious family who lost their baby boy today. My friend was due in March to have her third child. I found out she was pregnant shortly before my sweet Connor was born. They found out last week that the baby had little to no chance of survival. She went in for an emergency c-section this morning, and their baby boy is with Jesus tonight. I've been praying, crying, and holding Connor so tightly today. Even though I do know the sorrow of losing my own precious babies to miscarriages, I cannot fathom having a child's life inside me for nearly 9 months only to never be able to rock him to sleep at night.
Days like today remind me of how much I have yet to understand about God. How is it that God allowed me (of all horrible sinners) to have three beautiful, healthy babies when my friend and others who have followed God so much more diligently have their babies taken away from them? I am not sure that I will ever have that answer, but while I search for it, I am going to thank God every day that He has chosen to bless me. I will try to do everything I can to be deserving of the three little blessings He has given to me.
